"An Eye For An Eye" by Evelynn McCoy
Updated: Apr 29
CW: this story contains addiction, violence, murder,
She was everything I was not when I was her age, she had everything that I could only dream of having, she was your stereotypical blue eyed blondie with a perfect body that every boy would want to bang or have by his side as some kind of trophy. A preppy popular teenage dream, she was one of those.
We used to be like a pair of inseparable best friends. We knew each other’s secrets, insecurities, fears, dreams, everything. I hate to admit it but as the years went on I couldn’t stand her anymore. She hit the age of 16 and grew into something so egregious. I didn’t even know her anymore. She didn’t spend time with her family anymore because she was out drinking until four in the morning. She didn’t attend her classes because she was too busy with different guys. She didn’t call or text me anymore because the drugs had her in such a chokehold that all she wanted was the high.
I began to hate my own creation. Her constant drama and disgusting ways took something away from me that cannot be replaced. The one thing in my life that made me feel as though I had a reason to be here.
Her actions drove away the man that I loved.
In the middle of the night he left the home we had built and lived in for over 12 years. I woke up just to be met with a note on the coffee table basically telling me that having a daughter was the worst mistake I’ve ever made. Because of her, I am alone. Because of her, I struggle to pay my bills. Because of her, I no longer have the person who I cherished more than life itself.
The question “How could you kill your child” has been barked at me more times than I can stomach. I didn’t kill my child, I killed the problem. The problem that ruined my life.
The night of August 24th, 1998 is when I decided to do karma's job. I called my daughter and convinced her to come over to my apartment. The sight of her sitting on my couch made me ill. Her sunken in eyes, her thin almost sickly looking body, her greasy unkempt hair, everything that I was looking at just filled me with more certainty. I needed to get rid of her.
I pointed the revolver at the back of her head and fired three times. Fast forward a few years, I am sitting in my jail cell. I was given a life sentence. I don’t feel bad for anything I did. She ruined my life so I took hers away from her. It’s just an eye for an eye and i know I’m not the only one.
Evelynn McCoy is a senior (class of 2022). McCoy likes to spend her time listening to music, watching entertaining YouTube videos, laughing with her friends, and being alone. After high school she will join her fiancé as he is active duty in the military.